As we move closer to Palm Sunday, I'm beginning to ask myself this question. Have I made any progress on letting go of control and independence?
Tax season in our house is always a bit busy with phone calls and visitors. This past week we have added the chaotic, stressful mess of big and small plumbing leaks and a broken dryer. The plumbers have been here twice; the dryer repairman once.
Throughout this process, God has been teaching me something about the control that I prayed I could let go of this Lent. He is teaching me that control is a complete illusion. I’m realizing how little control I have, and I'm praying every day for the grace to let go of this illusion. I’ve learned that I can’t give this up alone - I need God’s help.
In the midst of the chaos, I have also experienced the peace of the Holy Spirit. The truth of Psalm 62:5-6 has never been more evident:
In GOD alone is my soul at rest.
God is the source of my hope.
In God I find shelter, my rock, and my safety.
I have also learned how dependent I am on other people and that receiving help to solve serious problems calls for tremendous gratitude. We hear this in the scripture reading for this Sunday:
Luke 7:36-50 MSG
One of the Pharisees asked him over for a meal. He went to the Pharisee’s house and sat down at the dinner table. Just then a woman of the village, the town harlot, having learned that Jesus was a guest in the home of the Pharisee, came with a bottle of very expensive perfume and stood at his feet, weeping, raining tears on his feet. Letting down her hair, she dried his feet, kissed them, and anointed them with the perfume. When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man was the prophet I thought he was, he would have known what kind of woman this is who is falling all over him.”
Jesus said to him, “Simon, I have something to tell you.”
“Oh? Tell me.”
“Two men were in debt to a banker. One owed five hundred silver pieces, the other fifty. Neither of them could pay up, and so the banker canceled both debts. Which of the two would be more grateful?”
Simon answered, “I suppose the one who was forgiven the most.”
“That’s right,” said Jesus. Then turning to the woman, but speaking to Simon, he said, “Do you see this woman? I came to your home; you provided no water for my feet, but she rained tears on my feet and dried them with her hair. You gave me no greeting, but from the time I arrived she hasn’t quit kissing my feet. You provided nothing for freshening up, but she has soothed my feet with perfume. Impressive, isn’t it? She was forgiven many, many sins, and so she is very, very grateful. If the forgiveness is minimal, the gratitude is minimal.”
Then he spoke to her: “I forgive your sins.”
That set the dinner guests talking behind his back: “Who does he think he is, forgiving sins!”
He ignored them and said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you. Go in peace.”
I’d love to hear your stories of “Letting Go for Lent”.
Susan
“Lent is a time of returning to God. It is a time to confess how we keep looking for joy, peace, and satisfaction in the many people and things surrounding us without really finding what we desire. Only God can give us what we want. So we must be reconciled with God… The season of Lent helps us in a special way to cry out for God’s mercy.” –Henri Nouwen
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